2 Sweetest Words Today

Hi dear blog.. today I feel so many feelings.. don't know which one that dominant.. I feel happy and sad in one time.. ups and downs.. I didn't know that I would meet MH in msn.. but I did meet him.. his status was dnd (do not disturb) so I didn't even say hi.. plus, actually I didn't want him to notice me online.. but, he said good morning to me.. so there was a little conversation between us.. he said he was having breakfast.. he offered me his accidentally made milkshake.. hahaha.. silly huh.. he's funny though.. but he said it was gooood.. I said that I would be delighted to have some, then he replied "okay I'm waiting for your hand to reach over my glass through the screen" ahahahaha.. then I said I wouldn't disturb his breakfast time.. well then he said something that makes me feel Kuch Kuch Hota Hai.. mwahahahahahahahaha XD .. he said "I have no one to share my breakfast, and now you will leave?.. -.-" oh my god.. why did he say that?? no folks.. I didn't leave him.. so I said "no.. actually I'm waiting for the milkshake.. lol" hahahaha..



----> this is the 1st : "I have no one to share my breakfast, and now you will leave?.. -.-"



and then for a while he didn't reply.. when he replied he said, "damn.. your cell phone screen is to small to hand you over my glass.. maybe when you're at home with your pc.." ahahaha.. yes he's funny folks!! LOOOL.. then he went silent for a long time.. I checked him, "M.. are you there?" he replied, "yeap".. I know that he was going to go to school.. then I asked, "time to go?" and yes I was true.. he said.. he was going to do some papers.. and he said, "talk to you later then my dear.." and I was so 'ooooooh' inside.. of course I didn't say it loud.. I just kept smiling.. LOOOOOL .. XD .. and I was just said "see you" then my msn went error.. LOL.. what a time.. ahahahahaha.. thanks to god.. for giving me friends from around the world..



----> this is the 2nd : "talk to you later then my dear.."


I'm not sure yet tonight the sweet words will be added or not.. damn if chat with him tonight, I won't sleep under 2 o'clock in the morning.. ahahahahahahaahaha.. XD

Tell Him

I'm scared.. so afraid to show I care.. will he think me weak, If I tremble when I speak? what if.. there's another one he's thinking of.. maybe he's in love.. I'd feel like a fool.. life can be so cruel, I don't know what to do.. I've been there, with my heart out in my hand, but what you must understand, you can't let the chance, to love him pass you by..

Should I..

Tell him.. tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes.. reach out to him.. and whisper, tender words so soft and sweet, hold him close to feel his heart beat, love will be the gift you give yourself..

Touch him.. with the gentleness you feel inside, your love can't be denied, the truth will set you free, you'll have what's mean to be, all in time you'll see..

I love him.. of that much I can be sure, I don't think I could endure, If I let him walk away.. when I have so much to say..

I'll..

Tell him.. tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes.. reach out to him.. and whisper, tender words so soft and sweet, hold him close to feel his heart beat, love will be the gift you give yourself..

Love is light that surely glows, in the hearts of those who know, it's a steady flame that grows, feed the fire with all the passion you can show, tonight love will assume its place, this memory time cannot erase, your faith will lead love where it has to go..

Tell him.. tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes.. reach out to him.. and whisper, tender words so soft and sweet, hold him close to feel his heart beat, love will be the gift you give yourself.. never let him go..

I'm breaking.. ='(

oh my god I trust in Thee.. please mend this broken heart of mine.. hasil pertandingan pagi ini.. sangat membuat patah hati.. I cried a goddamn river.. tears streaming down my face.. sedih banget.. tadinya udah pasrah.. mau ganti channel aja krn semakin ditonton semakin sakit.. ='( .. but I did not.. I didn't leave the stadium folks.. I'm with them.. my blood my tears my sweat my spirit my thoughts my words my will my destiny my heart my soul my strength my weakness my fidelity my solace .. are with LFC .. duh ini lebay ga sih?? enggak menurut gw.. siapapun yang baca mau ketawa, ketawa aja.. who cares? siapapun yang ngerasa mau ketawa silakan.. kasihan ya yang ga pernah merasakan loyalitas kayak gini.. mau dibilang lebay kek.. bodo amat.. emang gini kenyataanya..

tapi akhirnya.. buat apa berlarut2?.. we have another 90 minutes to be concerned.. masih banyak yang harus dipikirkan biar bisa menang dengan skor murni 3-0 di stamford bridge.. ayo kita goyang stamford bridge.. haha jadi inget karaokean kemaren.. ANCOL DIGOYAAAAANG!!.. hahahahahaha XD now I say the longest word in english.. smiles!! for all kopites including me.. be wise mates.. be brave.. kita harus belajar.. belajar menerima kekalahan.. yaa gw tau itu pasti lebih susah daripada limit fungsi trigonometri.. pokoknya.. YNWA..

pas udah mau off.. mau bobo.. ada orang yang ga diharapkan tiba2 nyapa lewat msn.. itu jam 4 pagi kalo ga salah.. atau jam 4 lewat.. si RB (not rafael benitez).. tiba2 nyapa.. ya Allah kenapa orang itu balik? setelah sekian lama ngilang ga ada kabar berita.. ditanyain ga pernah digubris.. dia balik dan nanya "apa kabar?" trus "nggak ngantuk?" gw baru sadar.. kosa kata bahasa indonesia dia bertambah.. entah dr cewek mana lagi.. hahaha.. gw udah ngelupain dia mate.. secara dia jauh di rotterdam.. sialan kenapa harus balik dan sok care gitu sih?? sok sok nanyain liverpool.. liburan.. pokoknya tai kucing banget.. pake nanya election apaan segala.. apa sih peduli lo ric?! get lost you goddamn dutch!! aduh aduh emosi.. hahaha.. maaf labil.. wkwkwkwk... alesan aja mau tidur, gw bilang gitu aja dia masih ngalang2in gw mau tidur.. nyari topik2 biar gw ga tidur.. topik yang biasanya ga pernah dia usahain untuk nyari.. ah sabodo teuing.. wakakakak

tidur deh jam 5 lewat abis subuh.. bangun jam 7 lewaat.. waah kesiangan padahal harus ke tps nyari bahan buat tugas.. yaudah bangun ga ngerapiin tempat tidur, sikat gigi, cuci muka, ganti baju, langsung ikut bapak cabut ke tps.. duuh.. harus muter lewat main road gara2 masuknya lewat block sebelah.. mana dspanjang jalan dtanyain .. "emang kamu udah milih?" .. "emang dedek udah milih?" .. aduuuuuuuuuuh .. kenapa semua orang nganggep gw anak kecil?? T_T maaf ibu2 bapak2.. bulan juli nanti saya udah milih presiden loh.. jadi nanti kalo ketemu saya jangan heran yaa.. udah di tps sendiri.. jalan2 ke tps orang sama bapak.. plus disuruh fotoin renovasi masjid Quba..

pulang ada mas wawan dan mba ella anak2nya.. mandi deh.. jadwal keramas.. ntar sabtu keramas lg.. biar minggunya fresh mau futsalan.. bingung nih diajak ikut supporter vs supporter.. yaah nantilah dipikirkan dulu.. laper banget td.. dr pagi belom makan apa2.. baru makan jam setengah 2 siang.. makan sup iga ibu.. enaaaaak.. tapi ga seenak biasanya.. kurang asin.. duh masa gw minta kawin sih.. hahahaha (katanya kalo anak perawan lagi doyan2 sm asin minta kawin).. makanlah tu sup enak.. abis itu makan jeruk buat penetralisir.. trus ciao lagi ke tps deket rumah.. ngambil foto penghitungan suara.. bentar trus pulang lagi.. ceting bentar sama bang didit sama ka mei.. trus mereka off.. ada lissa deh.. sambil nulis blog cetingan sama lissa.. wkwkwk.. okee sampe sini dulu.. =D

inul vizta dan tukang minta-minta terkutuk!!

salut a tous!!

waduuuh hari ini hari istimewa.. pertama.. haloooo.. kita selesai block test kawaaaan!!.. tadinya mau langsung cabut ke inul vizta.. tapi perut kami berkata lain.. =D ..rizzo, ayas, rimu, riru, sama ica ke McDo blok m.. rizzo, ayas, sama riru beli gourmet wrap.. ica sama rimu beli french fries yang deluxe + minum.. riska amal, pritha, lissa, esther, dinda, aul, roosa, nanda ke KFC di sebrang blok m.. mahal banget tuh gourmet wrap, 20 ribu.. yaudah terus diselundupin deh di tas.. biar ga dimarahin mbak2 karaoke.. hihihi ^^,


naah terus kita ke inul vizta deh.. jalan dikit.. sampe.. naik lift ga jelas naik turun krn ga tau inul vizta ada di lantai berapa.. mwahahahaha.. mana berisik banget dalem lift.. sampe ada orang ga jadi masuk gara2 satu lift isinya kita semua.. wahahaha.. ngabisin satu lift coba.. ckckck.. udah gitu cari yang murah kaga dapet.. ruangannya kesempitan.. akirnya ngambil yang large.. boleeh laaah. langsung taaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrriiiiiiiiiik maaaaaaaaaaaaaaang... hahahaha..


mulailah kita menggila bersama.. lagu pertama.. apalagi kalo bukan Oh Baby.. wahahaha.. yaudah.. mulai jepret sana jepret sini.. laper, akirnya makan gourmet wrap mahal tadi.. mana pas makan difoto.. berantakan banget abis menggila.. rambut acak2an.. belepotan mayonaise.. malah difoto sama nanda..


lanjuuuuuuuuut.. selesai makan.. balik lagi ke dance floor (halaah grease banget..) udah deh tu kacoooo berantakan ruangannya.. mana harus ngerapiin sendiri kalo ga kena charge.. eh.. si riska lagi goyang maut mbak2 karaokenya masuk.. bilang satu jam nya udah abis.. waah malu banget tuh si riska.. wkwkwk.. duh pasti rasanya tu muka mau ditaro di pantat.. mwahahaha..

udah akirnya memutuskan nambah 1 jam lagi... menggila lagi kali ini di video in.. anjiir.. gw sama lissa mesra abis.. wkwkwkwk.. nyanyii apaan ya? fool again apa my love? pokoknya westlife deh.. dan terus menggokil deh..

pulang nih.. beres2 ga mau kena charge.. ngumpetin sampah gourmet wrap td.. bayar 262ribu buat 2 jam.. dapet free ice cream.. ya tapi emang sih, sejilat abis.. nyari bis kaga lewat lewat.. jalan dikit deh sampe perempatan.. dapet bis ngantuk parah.. eh ada tukang palak sialan .. rame2 mana tampang mabok gitu.. udah pernah ketemu 3kali gw.. ga sekalipun dkasih.. drpada duit buat beli minuman ato bahkan narkoba.. jiih.. udah lanjutin tidur ahahaha.. bodo amat sana ngemeng..

udah deh nyampe rumah langsung bersih2.. kerja deh (duileh.. kerja) ngupload foto2.. selesaiii

Strange Day++

duh duh.. kenapa ini??.. hari ini rasanya ga karuan banget.. aneh.. sebenetar2 berubah.. tadi pagi ga tau kenapa tiba2 sedih.. entah apa yang bikin sedih.. galau.. bingung.. restless.. ga enak banget rasanya.. tapi definitely bukan karena block test.. bukan karena movie project yang tak kunjung selesai.. entahlah.. ga tau.. pas sampe sekolah, biasa aja rasanya.. ngobrol-ngobrol soal backpacking ke bali sama temen.. ngomongin rencana besok abis block test mau karaokean.. sambil belajar sejarah.. terus ke kelas deh belajar sejarah.. sebelum nyampe kelas.. di depan pos PMR ada anak kucing satu, warnanya abu-abu putih, lucuu banget, kalo di deketin dia ngumpet di pipa air.. masuk ke dalem.. wahahahahahaha XD setiap di deketin dia turun ke saluran air terus masuk ke pipa nya.. waah besok harus bawa kamera.. nyahaha.. kenapa anak kucing bertingkah bodoh ya? hahaha..

nah nah.. pas mau mulai ulangan murung lagi, heran .. moody banget hari ini.. yaudahlah kerjain aja noh soal.. duh mana lupa lagi ramalan jayabaya itu kerajaan mana? kediri? mataram? majapahit? jawab aja majapahit... terus terus break deh..

nah berhubung semalem belom belajar bahasa inggris gara2 buku dipinjem guru.. yaudahlah bermodal catetan temen.. =D ..eh si guru tiba2 sms : "your book is on my desk, just take it" then I replied "don't worry, I seldom study from text book.. err.. actually I seldom study english.. lol.." hahaha.. mudah2an ga ditandain deh namanya.. dengan bermodal instinct dan kepekaan.. ngerjain lah tuh bahasa inggris 50 soal.. aneh pula soalnya.. nyeeh dikasih koran bo!! Jakarta Post.. terus ada pertanyaan2nya.. mana udah ngantuk.. ngerjain sambil tiarap deh..

rencana buat besok.. ngerayain selesainya block test.. sama early celebration buat kemenangan liverpool besok.. HA-HA-HA .. sama foto2 si kucing.. waah udah lama ga ketemu antonio.. terakhir ketemu di kantin.. lagi cari makan kali dia.. dengan matanya yang bikin melting (halah).. udah besar sekarang dia.. waaah pasti jadi kucing playboy tuh.. macarin kucing2 desekolah.. ckckck.. padahal pas masih kecil lucu banget si antonio.. takut sama orang.. kalo disamperin ngumpet di semak-semak.. jadi inget kumos.. kucing betina yang maunya cuma main sama anak cowo.. senenganya main di mesjid, tapi mainnya sama ikhwan nya.. eh balik2 dari mesjid hamil.. waah.. ckckck.. jangan-jangan... hahahahaha.. XD

LDR - long distance relationship

1. What's LDR??

LDR stands for long distance relationship.. kayaknya khayalan banget ya??.. dan so silly.. extremely silly.. ya tapi apa boleh dikata?? we can't fool oursleves.. we can't lie to our hearts.. apalagi kalo si pasangan itu ada di luar negri.. ga jelas gimana bisa ketemuannya.. apalagi kalo emang kemungkinan ketemu amat sangat kecil.. rasanya cuma bisa ngayal kalo mau ketemu.. tapi balik lagi ke yang tadi.. we can't lie to our hearts.. LDR sounds stupid I know.. gimana kita bisa ada chemistry ke orang itu kalo cuma bisa communicate lewat dunia maya.. gimana caranya kita ada feeling kalo cuma liat fotonya.. yah kemungkinan itu banyak.. tapi kemungkinan itu sangat kecil...

2.Thrill

tapi gimana kalo ada sebuah thrill yang ga tau kenapa datang tiba2.. ada sebuah thrill yang berbeda walaupun cuma msn-an atau ym-an?? selalu ada adrenaline rush pas si doi tiba2 sign in.. dan jantung bekerja lebih keras pas si doi nyapa.. I absolutely know that it is so goddamn silly.. but once again.. we can't lie to our hearts.. sampai sekarang belom pernah denger ke-langgengan long distance relationship..

3. Batas Ruang dan Waktu

emang sih.. kemajuan I-tech menyamarkan batas ruang dan waktu.. jadi mempermudah yang namanya long distance relationship.. but think.. long distance relationship itu cuma sebatas.. istilahnya pacaran khayalan.. ga nyata.. apa yang diucap belom tentu sama dengan yang di hati.. apa yang divisualisasikan lewat tulisan belom tentu sama dengan apa yang dilakukan.. bisa aja si doi cuma nge-e'e'-sapi (baca : bullshit).. dan siapa tau si doi cuma melancarkan rayuan-rayuan maut (jiaelah.. dipikir dewi persik.. goyang maut maang).. pokoknya susah.. yang tau yang sebenarnya cuma si doi sama Allah..

4. Curcol (hahaha.. tapi jangan anggap bodoh ya)

balik lagi ke soal thrill tadi.. lalu apakah sebenarnya thrilled feeling ini?? kenapa si thrill ini bisa muncul?? dari mana asalnya? (dari mata turun ke hati? ah masi ada idung, mulut, dagu, leher).. serius.. si Mr. Thrill ini datang dr mana?? jujur ya my dear blog.. I had been in ldr.. dengan seorang belanda bernama RB.. dia half-blooded.. ibunya orang indonesia bapaknya orang belanda.. dia tinggal di rotterdam.. I used to teach him indonesian.. karena dia ga bisa bahasa indonesia.. but not anymore.. we are done.. =D .. I'm glad we are.. selain dia katolik.. dia suka krik krik kalo diajak ngobrol hahaha.. and I realized how stupid I am.. had been in that stupid ldr.. but folks.. err.. dear blog.. I'm afraid.. I'm sooo afraid that I'm going to fall again in ldr.. really.. please god .. don't let me fall for this guy if I can't even meet him.. bodoohnya akuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!! tapi benar2 thrilling.. serius.. he's funny.. he's smart.. even he's genius for me.. he makes me laugh.. he's handsome.. he's cool.. he's where I can learn more about editing and stuff.. he teaches me how to make people laugh.. he teaches me math.. he teaches me equality.. he teaches me how to see the world.. tapi ya itu dia.. ga tau kalo itu benar atau engga.. but he made that impressions to me.. jangan kaget.. dia orang pakistan.. tapi pakistan ningrat jadi ga item.. and he's also sweet.. and.. messy and unshaved.. hahaha.. pokoknya he's the man banget so far.. namanya MH.. but once again god.. please.. stop this if there's no unequivocal ending.. stop this before it's too far.. oh my dear god I feel soooooooooooooooooo stupid... but yeah.. that's what I'm feeling right now.. and please god.. listen to me.. I love you my dear God.. =)

Crazy damn day!!

today.. was so... arrrgh!!

dimulai dari jam yang paling pagi.. jam 12an lah.. berharap banget MU kalah.. padahal udah ketinggalan satu gol.. malah menang MU nya.. Liverpool jadi peringkat 2 lagi.. tadinya udah semangat besoknya mau ulangan kimia.. jadi ga semangat euy.. yaudah.. nonton hercules deh sampe jam 2 pagi.. berhubung second block test ini masuk siang.. jadi bobo malem2 gapapa deh.. tapi ga seru banget masuk siang.. capek.. udah gitu.. duh duh.. ya Allah.. ck! turun dari bis.. menyusuri trotoir ke sekolah.. dari jauh ngeliat bapak2 aneh.. eh ternyata pas lewat depannya.. ya Allah.. buseeeet.. si bapak2 itu lagi melakukan hal yang tidak seharusnya dilakukan.. bapak2 tersebut lagi melakukan sesuatu dgn (maaf) penis nya.. seketika itu juga langsung takut banget.. shaking saking takutnya.. pingin nangis.. serius ga bohong.. udah kecil, item, serem lagi.. gilaaaaaaaaaaa!!... he's sick!! sick!! sampe ada orang nanya gw ga bisa jawab apa2.. orang itu temennya satpam kejaksaan.. bercanda nanyain sma 70 di mana?.. and guess what!! all I can do just ponting to my school which next to kejaksaan.. tanpa ekspresi dengan keringat dingin.. masih keinget kejadian tadi.. untung ga blank kimia nya.. wuah.. and I pray to god : dear God.. I've been gone through so many obstacles and problems today.. please bless me through those problems and obstacles.. don't let those things weakened me.. and god.. I don't have big problems.. but problems.. I HAVE A BIG GOD!!